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Today I've spent wondering how some people can be so blind to the truth and if I'm actually one of those people too. I'm never very sure of things anymore.
I have a friend in a situation that she's put herself in because the fact is she's the delusional one! I know if she reads this, she'll know who she is and be pissed off, but I don't really know what to do. It seems like it's better to say nothing to her and let her be happy trapped in the web of lies he has spun for her. There's so much evidence against him, yet she still lets this happen. I just don't know what to do anymore...for her or myself. Maybe it's just one of my moods I get into that means nothing, or maybe it's a feeling telling me I need to do/change something. I kind of feel betrayed by someone, but at the same time a part of me thinks I know it was nothing. Either way, it's confused me and made me quite a bit upset. What do I do about it without over-reacting because, once again, it may be nothing? I don't know. I really don't know. I hate it...
On to other news, I got a kitty cat to stay in the apartment. It's cute, but it's really the spawn of Satan and it hates me. It's favorite things to do are bite the shit out of my face and make a mess as soon as I finish cleaning the other one up. That's about it. I have Halloween off and the Friday and Saturday before so I'm hoping maybe a last-minute party or something can be planned. Yay for Halloween!
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[18 Jun 2005|10:12am] |
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I've been online two Saturdays in a row! Go me! Still thinking about getting the internet hooked up at the apartment but not sure when yet. I know it's getting close to a year since we moved in there and we still haven't got it, but oh well. There's a few things I've decided I need to do for myself in the last week or so: 1) Stop smoking. 2) Stop smoking so much goddamn weed...which in the past week couple of weeks I have managed to do...well I have smoked a LOT less than I was. 3) I need to hang out with my friends more. I think since I started working, I've pretty much alienated myself from a lot of people...mostly because I'm always so tired though. 4) Get back on my diet. I've gained a lot of the weight I lost back and it makes me miserable. I'm not as fat as I was at my fattest point, but I don't want to get there...and the way I'm going now, I will...so I have to change that for sure. and 5) Stop drinking so much. I don't know how many times I've called into work because I had a hangover from hell...and I know that no matter how miserable and depressed and suicidal and bitter being a cashier at Wal-Mart has made me, I don't need to do that anymore. I am applying for a job in the cash office there, so hopefully they'll give me a chance at it. No more dealing with so many assholes and crazies and bullshit from people. I'll get to sit in a nice quiet little office all day and count money...I'll be making a little more money too I think. But I'm not going to get my hopes up because not many things ever go the way I want them to, plus I have missed a few days of work and they'll probably look at that. Bleh. I really need to work on myself and get back to the point in my life where I was happiest. Well, it's about time to get my ass to work, so all of my loyal followers should look forward to another post in the next ummmm...I'll say couple of months. Maybe sooner, maybe later. Toodles.
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[24 Jan 2005|05:55pm] |
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Wow...this is the first time I've posted in a while. Not much been happening...well actually there probably have been some pretty interesting things going on, but I can't remember right now. That happens a lot. I've been working a lot, "partying it up" some, going to a few shows and that's about it. Haven't really hung out much lately which sucks, but I'm always sooooo tired now. I went in at Wal-Mart at 6 this morning which sucked major ass because I am sick and it was freezing in there all day and all of the remodeling they're doing is retarded, and after I left there, I came to Richie's work to do some things for their E-bay Store and I'm here til 8. Oh well...I'm supposed to be working right now, so this isn't going to be very long. We still don't have internet at the apartment, but maybe we will soon. Blah blah blah. I'll update more when I get more time around the computer. Peace.
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[16 Sep 2004|06:01pm] |
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I've lost my cell phone and the last time I remember having it is when I was washing clothes. It's not next to the washing machine. This can't be a good thing...
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[16 Sep 2004|05:11pm] |
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My birthday is in 2 days...yay. I'll be working. My parents wanna have cake and a small party for me when I get off Saturday night though. Friends can come too if they actually care enough to drive a few miles out of the way to help me celebrate. Mmmhmm...someone should know what I'm talking about. Anyway, I requested Halloween to be my scheduled days off for that week and I got it. That rocks because I'm all about some Halloween partying. Speaking of parties, I got really fucked up at PJ's party on Friday night. It was so much fun though. And there's this new girl Tasha who has joined our crew and she's pretty cool to hang with. Anyway, the party was a lot of fun, a lot of relaxin' and not worrying about work or anything really. For some reason I've been super stressed for the past couple of weeks. I guess it's just one of those moods, plus having to deal with assholes at Wal-Mart and those fucking kids who throw bags of M&M's at me. Have I mentioned how much I hate kids before? If you already knew, you must be thinking "Is it possible for her to hate kids any more than that?" Well, yes it is. After the M&M incident and dealing with all of the other snotty-nosed kids that come through my line, the hate has more than tripled. And the parents just let their kids get away with anything. I'm supposed to be nice to these people who are such fucking idiots? Whoever came up with the phrase "the customer is always right" is stupid because in my opinion, the customer is always a dumbass. Maybe I am mean or maybe I just haven't been getting enough sleep and keeping myself awake by consuming numerous amounts of KMX during break/lunchtime is not good for me. But enough about that. Richie and I may be moving into our apartment next week! WOOOOO! I'm so excited, but at the same time I keep thinking we're gonna have to go through a lot of other bullshit with the place before we can actually move in. Hopefully not though. I can't wait to decorate. :) We finally went to see Napoleon Dynamite last night and it wasn't as good as I'd expected. It had some really great scenes, but there were a lot of boring, not-so-funny ones as well. Overall, it was an alright movie, but we both agreed it would have been better as a series or something. Well, I'm off to finish up the laundry. Toodles!
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| HAPPY HAPPY FUNTIME! |
[26 Aug 2004|08:32pm] |
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LAST PERSON WHO
x. Slept in your bed: I haven't even slept in my own bed in months...
x. Saw you cry: Probly Richie or Casey or Peggy who I work with.
x. Made you cry: Nobody
x. You spent the night with: Other than Richie (though I wouldn't even consider it spending the night anymore), it'd be Casey.
x. You shared a drink with: Richie and I got our drink on a few nights ago.
x. You went to the movies with: Richie, Phillip, and Jessie.
x. You went to the mall with: Richie
x. Yelled at you: My dad probably.
x. Sent you an email: Richie sent me one about spider bites today.
x. You kissed: Richie
HAVE YOU EVER...
x. Said "I Love You" and meant it? I thought I meant it at the time.
x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: Nope
x. Been to New York: Not yet. I think I'd like to see it someday though.
x. Florida: Yup, and it was awesome.
x. California: Not yet. I'd like to see it also.
x. Hawaii: Nope.
x. Mexico: Nope.
x. China: Nope.
x. Canada: Nope.
x. Danced naked: Yeah
x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: Not the next day, but maybe a couple of weeks afterwards.
x. Wish you were the opposite sex: Nah, not really.
x. Had an imaginary friend: Yeah...so what???
x. Fought with your parents: Who hasn't?
x. Things you like in a guy: Uniqueness...if that's a word, artistic, sense of humor, good hair...hehe, and other things.
x. What book are you reading now: None because I suck.
x. Worst feeling in the world: Depression
x. What is the first thing you think when you wake up: How much I'd like to go back to sleep.
x. Future daughter's name: I don't want kids because I hate the little fuckers.
x. Future son's name: See above
x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: I do still have a stuffed bear named Holly, but she stays at my house.
x. What's under your bed: Shoes, clothes, and all sorts of crap.
x. Favorite sport to watch: X-treme sports and stuff like that.
x. Current Age: 18...almost 19...wooo.
x. Siblings: One little sister.
x. Location: SC
x. Piercings/tattoos: Standard ear piercing + an industrial.
x. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Richdizzle
EXTRA STUFF
x. Do you do drugs: Weed sometimes.
x. Do you drink: Hellz yeah!
x. Who are your best friends: Richie, Casey, Steph, Missy, all my crew.
x. What are you most scared of: Losing the people I care about the most and never living out my dreams.
x. What clothes do you sleep in: I sleep naked a lot or sometimes I wear shorts and a t-shirt.
x. Where do you want to get married: Who knows if I even will get married. Haven't really thought about it.
x. Who do you really hate: Most people.
x. Been in love: I've thought I was before.
x. What type of automobile do you drive: None yet.
x. Do you have a job: Yeah.
x. Do you like being around people: Depends on what people they are.
x. Are you for world peace: Sure, but it'll never happen.
x. Are you a health freak: I should be.
x. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: I used to say I did, but that was during pre-teendom.
x. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: Nah, not really...I've dated a lot of different types.
x. Want someone you don't have right now: No, my boyfriend makes me perfectly happy.
x. Are you lonely right now: No.
x. Ever afraid you'll never get married: I really haven't thought about marriage any.
x. Do you want to get married: Someday I may want to.
x. Do you want kids: NEVARRRRRR!
FAVORITE
x. Room in house: Bedroom.
x. Type(s) of music: So many different types...
x. Color: Black and pink.
x. Perfume or cologne: Love Spell, Bora Bora, Shy Violet...
x. Month: October....hooray for Halloween!
x. Gemstone: Sapphire
IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
x. Cried: I don't think so.
x. Bought something: Yes.
x. Gotten sick: Yes.
x. Sang: Yes.
x. Said "I Love You": Yeah, to my mommy earlier.
x. Met someone new: No.
x. Talked to someone: Yes.
x. Missed someone: My grandma.
x. Hugged someone: Yes.
x. Kissed someone: Yes.
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Today I got paid AND it's my day off! WOOT WOOT! I've been really unusually sleepy lately, so I was taking a nap when Casey called and woke me up. She wanted me to go eat with her, so I did. She'Ron came along too. We decided we'd go to Gattiland so we could play some Pump It Up too. I really don't like PIU much. DDR is so much better. Gattiland pizza sucks too. I got a huge plate and ended up leaving almost all of it. It was a big waste of $7, but it was fun hanging out. And there was this one cool airplane shooting game where you sit in a machine in a little glass room and you spin around while you're shooting at planes. It rocked. I really wanna go to Dollar Max and buy more Halloween stuff...I think I may take a nap right now though. I'm boring.
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I finally got someone to give me a new availibility sheet to fill out at Wal-Mart. I dunno if it'll do any good, but we'll see. An old man that reminded me of my grandpa gave me a $1.25 tip and told me I better not put it back in the drawer and that I should keep it and get myself a drink. If anyone else comes to my register, feel free to tip me. It's the right thing to do and it'll get you into heaven for sure.
My industrial still hurts, but not nearly as bad. I'm sure it wouldn't hurt as much if I would stop bumping it on stuff. I was getting the trash under my register over the weekend and hit it really hard against the counter. I'm glad there were no managers around because I used some language that is inappropriate in the workplace.
Yesterday, Richie and I had the day off so we went to play on playgrounds. Lots of fun. We also went window shopping at the mall and Old Navy. I ended up buying some leopard print washclothes from there because they were only $1.99. When we were walking to get back in his truck I said I wished I had money and all of a sudden, there was a $20 bill on the ground in front of me. It fucking rocked. We bought stuff to cook a big yummy mexican meal with it and spent the rest on Halloween stuff from Dollar Max (the best store ever). We went to skateboard last night, even though I didn't really skate because there was one board and I was having too much fun catching frogs and bugs and trying to get one kind of bug to eat another one.
I really need to get on a strict diet. I was looking at some older pictures last night and I really don't want to get as big as I was before. I'm still nowhere near where I want to be, but I know I definatly don't want to look like I used to again. Looking at those pictures made me wanna throw up.
Anyway, that's about it for now. I'm gonna go look for clothes I can get rid of and then get ready for work.
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[21 Aug 2004|10:03am] |
Thursday, I went with Casey, Steph, Megan, Edward, Bronson, Dana, Erin, and Brittany to Ink Links in NC. Dana and Steph got tattoos, Meg got a peircing to the side of her lip that I dunno what it's called, and Casey, Edward, and I got industrials 'cause we are the coolest. Haha. Anyway, here it is.
It was the most physical pain I have ever felt in my life.
After we got back in SC, we saw my mommy's new car which is really nice, then we went out to eat at Fuji where Eric, Missy, and Richie joined us, then we went to Wal-Mart. Richie and I went to wash clothes after that. Woooooo fun!
I almost passed out at work on Wednesday night and had to be walked into the Radio Grill to sit down and drink orange juice. I dunno what the fuck is wrong with me but I've been feeling sick like that a lot lately and Richie has too. We think it may be low blood sugar because of the way we've been eating lately, so yeah. I'm 'bout to go eat healthy enchiladas now then I'm going to work. Bye bye.
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I feel really shitty. I think it's because it's that time of the month for me and I have the worst cramps ever. It hurts to stand up. It seems everything about Wal-Mart has been pissing me off even more this week. I can't get in touch with the damn woman I'm supposed to talk to about staying on full-time. You'd think with all the fucking managers and shit they have walking around in there doing nothing everyday, I'd be able to talk to at least one of them and get my hours straightened out. Working part-time sucks. I left a note for the chick and if she doesn't talk to me about it sometime this weekend I'm definatly gonna start looking for another job.
In other news, I hung out with Casey and her guy friend of the month on Wednesday. It was fun. Went to Westgate Mall, Best Buy, Up In Smoke, Haywood Mall, then to Hollywood 20 to dance it up. I'm proud of myself for making a B on both Look to the Sky and Kind Lady on heavy. First time that's happened to me in the arcade version...woo hoo!
Anyway, I'm about to get offline and get started on getting ready for work. Later.
 You Are F***-able!And boy do you ever take advantage of your do-ability. And why not? If you can score, why not go for it? And no matter how many steamy affairs you have... Well, you always seem to find more. And no wonder - you are hot from any perspective. Hot attitude, hot appearance, and hot passion equals tons of hot screwing! Are You F***able?More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva
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On Monday, Richie and I had the day off so we went thrift store shoppin'. I got a few shirts, a couple of skirts, a record for my mom, a cd that looked interesting but ended up sucking, some fishnets, some beanie babies, and Richie got a couple of shirts and some pants too and it was all about $25, so I'm happy. Later I learned first hand that drinking a whole bottle of Pucker and half a bottle of vodka after taking painkillers is a bad idea. Yesterday, I was supposed to be at work at 10am, but had to call in because I was still fucked up. Yeah, I felt like a fucking loser because of that. I think it's probably time I back off the drinking again for a while. Anyway, after I finally woke up later in the day and started feeling better, I cleaned the bathroom and made it all pretty and shiny for the most part. I need to get in cleaning moods like that more often. I posted my pictures in my Yahoo photo album, so anyone who wants to see should go check it out: photos.yahoo.com/lunachick_85
The ones from Florida are towards the bottom. I didn't get the Warped pics on a disk because I wasn't sure how they'd turn out. Since they're good, I think I'll get them put on one or get Richie to scan 'em for me. Either way, I'll have 'em up soon. I would've just posted them here, but I am lazy. Well, I think Casey and I may go do something in a little while, so I'm out.
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| first entry bitches |
[07 Aug 2004|10:54am] |
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So yeah, my ujournal site isn't working and that pisses me off seeing as I just came back from vacation and had a lot to update about. Now I have a livejournal...woot woot. Anyway, vacationing in Florida was super fun even though all I really did was sit around and get really fucking drunk with Richie, Phillip and Jessie. We went to see Anchorman, which wasn't really that good. We also went to one of the beaches there and shopping a little. It was all good. Richie, Phillip and Chris made a cd one night and some of it is actually really good. They had a lot of fun. Phillip and Jessie are really nice people. Usually I don't feel comfortable around people I've just met, but with them I did. I didn't really get to hang out with Chris much, but he seems like a cool dude too. I went off my diet while there and felt kind of shitty about that seeing as I'd just lost 40 pounds in the 3 months before I went there and I felt like all I did was gain it all back even though realistically I don't think that could happen in one week. When we got back on Sunday, we slept for a little while then went to chill with my family since it would have been my grandma's birthday and they had a little memorial dinner type deal. On Monday, we went to Warped Tour. I wasn't caring to see many bands there other than Tiger Army and Avenged Sevenfold. They both kicked ass by the way. We found out that Groovie Ghoulies were playing, but we missed them which really sucked. We watched some more bands too. Oh yeah, and I met Tiger Army and got my picture taken with them. It was awesome. And as teeny-bopperish as it may sound, I must say that Avenged Sevenfold is THE HOTTEST BAND EVER...hehe. I'll be sure to post some pictures later when I'm on my own computer. As of now, I must be leaving. Toodles.
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